Category Archives: Future Aspirations

Can you Keep a Secret? Shhh…

Distracted
by obscure plans
to dress down
lace expectations
with a little more faith,
a little less glamour,
and a lot more hope.

Distracted
by obscure plans
becoming more clear,
spanning 6,000 miles
to elope.

Goodbye, Blogger

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Blogger, I’m sorry, but we can’t be friends.

I’m refocusing my Internet-based activities in a more direct, content-rich way. Chi Speak is all over the social media scene right now, dangling a bit in Digg‘s vastness with pinches of Pinterest and this set-up won’t work for the long-term. If you don’t believe me, ask my inbox; it gets clogged with password reset reminders all the time. My multiple e-mail accounts get tangled and I really hate signing in and out through another user any time I feel like dropping in for a quick chat.

We’re drifting apart, Blogger. I appreciate your streamlined sensibilities, but that last upgrade you pulled really threw me off. I don’t know you anymore; we don’t talk to each other for weeks, sometimes months at a time now. You dyed yourself orange and got really pale too, like you decided to hide away from the sun all winter. I’m all for design overhauls, but I used to read you easily. It’s not your fault that I spend the majority of my day staring at a computer screen and have weakened vision, but I am loath to mess with my Chrome browser view settings (shortcuts included) all the time in order to talk to you.

You also exclude yourself from our other friends, or your potential friends, rather. Twitter, Tumblr, Flickr, Facebook, Formspring, etc. know how to share and syndicate content across platforms, but your aloofness gets tiresome. Don’t try to bring Google+ into this, please. I like Google+ well enough, but you even hesitate to share there as well, which does not make sense since I’m with you through Chrome all the time. Aren’t you three inextricably linked? My computer software is up-to-date and I clear out the cache regularly.

AdSense has nothing to do with this either, Blogger. True, I never made a dime from advertising with you, but remember, I never was after your money. Our friendship was genuine and to hear you suggest otherwise stings in an insulting, deep way. I am not a gold digger and you know it.

Truly, the final straw was Picasa; you two are together all the time (which is fine, I want you to have friends other than me), but I upload files to write about later and you know what you do? You share it with Picasa. I could not even figure out how to delete an uploaded Google+ profile picture from Picasa easily without consulting Quora. Communicating between the three of us should be easy, but it’s not. Why so secretive? It’s creepy for you to hang on to mementos like that, Blogger.

You deserve a more attentive blogger, someone who will utilize those gadgets with passion and purpose. Someone who will forgive your quirks. I can’t give you that anymore. Things between me and WordPress are getting serious, and I really need to let go before you get the wrong idea.

Don’t worry, the old posts will get transferred out soon, Blogger. I’ll see you around.

Create Your Luck

photo taken by my sister

Think about your greatest aspiration, the one you hold so close others are not  aware of it. The one you tuck beneath your rib cage, past your sternum and nestle somewhere near your left ventricle. Right there. Feel it? Good. Stay aware of it for a moment. We’ll get back to that dream because there’s something else that needs to be addressed first. You feel it too, right? Something possibly smaller, but more deadly, restrictive. You can feel it pressing down on that little bubble of hope, threatening to pop it. You know what it is? I’ll tell you – uncertainty, fear, limited time/resources, life responsibilities, and more often than not, self-imposed excuses. Perhaps it’s even a twin feeling that your aspiration is too great or unrealistic to meet (note: you should always check this possibility before beginning any life-altering endeavor, but if others have done it through hard work, you might say it’s not so wild after all). Plan out baby steps and you will soon find that small feats accomplish great ones.

Think about the obstacles. You might not overcome all of them, or you  may not even want to, but you can make alterations in your daily tasks to better support your goals. For instance, I want to be a published author, but know I must sharpen my skills before writing and editing through anything. I also need to learn the ins and outs of the industry to better my chances of securing a literary agent. Obvious “obstacles” include work, paying bills, stopping to take care of my basic needs (food, sleep, hygiene), errands, and social relationships aside from work. I can’t write 24/7. I don’t have the means or resources. Yet, I am willing to lose a few extra hours of sleep to make the time. Weekends are golden. I also put forth the extra effort needed to get experience. I was the editor for my alma mater’s literary magazine, working my way in the ranks from interested staff member to helping us win an award. I won a few poetry contests. I blog and freelance for online writing assignments. I have a ball.

When you want something badly enough, you make time for it.You seek resources and ways to improve. You never give up and push through even when discouraged. My progress toward this goal keeps climbing, not falling, but my life will not lose its meaning (I’m not talking to you, nihilists) if I never publish a novel. I will not regret the ride and I do not intend to stop blogging either way.

I believe in supporting personal luck and cultivating the ambition and tools to project myself forward. Keep it moving. Keep upbeat. Chin high. Pause when a breather is necessary. Sleep and wake up to begin again.

Insert 2012-Related Title Here

Hello friends, family, and readers, regular and new. Happy New Year!

The universe is transformation; our life is what we make it. - Marcus Aurelius

2011 filled out into a memorable, thick chapter in my life. I wrote my first reviews and articles for other sites this past year. You – all of you – encouraged, pushed, and critiqued when needed. Editors helped me develop my craft, carve words more precisely, and find comfort in hacking hasty sentences to pieces. Community approval propelled this site forward during low, uninspired moments, like when my mother underwent serious health problems and I dragged through the last few months of graduate school halfheartedly, homesick and worried.

A note left for me from last year, December 31, 2010.

Chi Speak blossomed from your belief in it more than mine. I’m astonished by its growth over a year. “Thank you” does not sufficiently express my gratitude, but it will have to do for now.

Oh, 2012, you will not see any strict resolutions from me because I will undoubtedly slow down and let them fade away until next December. However, I vow to persevere, make improvements around here (some on purpose, some by accident), work passionately as an educator and counselor, improve as a person, jump in the melee and jump out, smile often, forgive even more, crack jokes and laugh at others’ punch lines (no matter how cheesy or flat), stay realistic, thankful, and grounded, and keep my mind open and hopeful like a thirsty sponge, blogging  along the way.

I promise you all that, New Year, at least. Let’s shake on it and get back to the party before someone asks for you. You sure are popular tonight.

Essential Tools and Advice for the Upcoming Blogger

Several weeks ago, I accepted an invitation from Dr. Rick Wilber, author of Future Media (read my review of his book on BlogCritics or SeattlePI) to speak with his students about freelance writing and establishing oneself as an online writer. They video-conferenced me in to their classroom within the School of Mass Communications at the University of South Florida early this morning. His class asked challenging, thought-provoking questions and I enjoyed our discussion immensely.

However, there was still so much to say and clarify. I can’t and won’t do that in a blog post, but here are some must-haves I recommend for upcoming bloggers as they start to monetize or establish a writing portfolio for their work*:

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“Happy 25th Birthday, Rae!”

Yep, kids. It finally happened- I turned 25. To some, it seems like I’m approaching a precipice toward fading youth (bring on the laughter lines), but to a great many more, I’m still a young, baby-faced kid with a lot to learn and prove. I’m a ‘young professional’  now, which is a stage assuredly less awkward than adolescence, but laced with mild discomfort, a tingling desperation, and a lot of built-in, cheap enthusiasm.

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Remodel

See the text in the header? Do you like it? It’s ChiSpeak.com’s official logo, a successful DIY moment, I think. I decided to take a leap and not let fear restrain me any longer after learning the mournful news of Steve Jobs’ passing. I also finally stopped procrastinating and ordered business cards from Moo.com.

You’ll see steady changes to this haven as soon as my schedule frees up, starting in 2012. I also vow to actively search for freelance projects, add writing communities/collaborative groups to my current affiliates, and increase my contributions to my current, somewhat neglected homes-away-from-home (I miss you too, fair editors of the blogosphere).

 

An Irresponsible Splurge vs. Losing my Marbles

This is a needs vs. wants dilemma. Frequent readers of this humble blog probably know how much I love music. In fact, these musical instruments and related items fill my home*:

  • Keyboard
  • Multicolored xylophone bells for children
  • Hand percussion (tambourines, sleigh bells, maracas, bongos)
  • At least one functioning guitar and several defunct others on stands
  • An amp
  • Full-sized violin
  • Effect pedal
  • Snare drum
  • Hi-hat with tambourine tree
  • Snare brushes and countless and a few pairs of drumsticks
  • A USB condenser microphone

Hammered by the Beat

It’s easy to run on autopilot. People are habitual creatures, usually. Most of us seek stability and a predictable pattern, a recurrent rhythm develops in even the most chaotic lifestyles. Expectations form.

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upcoming changes

I’ve been a busy little blogger. The summer heat is to thank (or blame), but expect more personal content here, while I write for other websites (see the Contributing Writer section to your right) including BlogCritics, Girlhack, and Technorati.

The goal is to write at least two posts per day now that my summer course ended, but we’ll see if it pans out. Assume that I am melting in front of a smoking air conditioner if dust starts to collect here. I hope to stay true to myself, though my interests will pull me in different directions. Writing reviews, articles, and news blurbs will be a positive distraction, but I cannot forget to stay self-aware and introspective. It’s easy to lose oneself in that atmosphere.

Trust that I’ll have a lot of whining and chaos to discuss once I’m officially done with post-graduate studies this December too. It’s a given that I’ll lapse into an identity crisis. Remember, I’m a professional student. This will be the first time since I was three years old that I’m not enrolled in some type of class.

Ponder that for a bit while I show off my latest disgrace – yes, ladies and gents, Chi Speak has an official Facebook page. I’m going to work off my guilt by temporarily turning off the Internet. Ciao!